For the past two weeks, i am so exhausted. Stress is but normal for me with the work that i do. . .

I just noticed that after eating full meal,  i get hungry agad  in a span of two hours (sometimes even less).. so imagine how many times i am eating in a day. I would wake up in  the middle of the night because of hunger pangs. In the past, i could go on the entire afternoon without merienda and still feel very full.  Hmmm...  i also feel bloated most of the time, especially after drinking water. Just a little amount of water, and i feel nauseated right after.  My craving for chocolate has stopped too. I mean, chocolate is my life, and in a day i consumed bars and bars.. (really!).. but this time, i cannot eat them!  Instead, i have been wanting to eat Grower's peanuts (i had it during our swimming last April, and i missed it again so i bought some the other day). Surprisingly, after i ate grower's peanut, i instantly felt good.!  That's the only food i am eating now that my stomach doesn't complain... !  In addition, i also feel hot most of the time.. though thermometer gave a normal body temperature.

Waaahhhhhhhh! 

What the hell is wrong with me kaya...?!!!

Now, im really starting to get worried.. sa totoo lang.. 

im sometimes dumb.. and there are days that i'm even dumber.

admitting that won't make me less of a person..

but it doesn't take a dumb person to figure out an old adage:

            if there's a will,  there's a way.

and whatever it takes... if i may add.

in the absence of  will, andaming pwedeng dahilan.  

excuses, excuses and still obvious lame excuses.

but still, life goes on.....

Just finished talking to a friend who came from a weekend adventure in White Beach. We're not that close but we've been talking for weeks already about Galera. We almost have the same vacation schedule and resort booking, but our group didn't push-through. He was calling and texting me while he was there and though we're not really that close, apparently, he felt comfortable talking to me that he shared 800++ (1 gig) - tons of pictures! Those were mostly candid shots of awesome babes, and non-wholesome stuff, among others. It really surprised me because there were two separate folders for the pics and he readily granted me access to the private folder! Somehow, i felt uncomfortable i had to end the conversation right away.  Anyway, back to the pictures, ang dami talagang magagandang chicks sa balat ng lupa! ... Buti pa sila...  hehehe..  

Definitely Not an AVON ad...

Talk about being pressured to update my blog... Thanks to Rachel. hehehe

Where do i start? During the holy week vacation while everyone's preoccupied with religious activities, i opted to have a relaxed, laid-back and very idle vacation. Silly,  i stayed home the whole time. This is the first, one-of-a kind thingy - the sun didn't hit me for the straight 5 days! That's literally and figuratively written. No extrovert Star... And those of you who personally know me - Im not sick. I just wanted to stay home. Simple.

My room was my constant companion, my cellphone was my closest buddy - there's text twist and gnomes and arkanoid that kept me busy. The result: numb fingers, red eyes, and headache. Beating myself to just another high score - that was fun!  When boredom strikes, DVDs were always handy. During gaps, there's food. And drinks. And cigarettes. No liquor this time? True. Uyyy, i'm not bitter ha... maybe i'm getting old.

Now, let's talk about being happy - because right now, I am.      No apparent reason. No one asked how's my day, but I just choose to be happy. A matter of life's perspective.  I am happy!  Yehheeyy! I am just so happy, i have to hit the publish button now. 

For the longest time, i have been exceedingly stupid. 

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!!!!

Can i just be like cellphone unit on a silent mode? 

Still, Quiet, and Numb.

Promise, i will vibrate when i have to communicate.

Enough is Enough.